The Metastasis of a Neoplastic Oncogene...

Change of blog

2009-10-18T01:17:00.002+08:00

Ola people!

Iris the neoplastic oncogene will be blogging on

http://irisrenee.tumblr.com

This blog will not be updating anymore.

Sorry for any inconvenience!

See ya there!!! ^^

Iris the neoplastic oncogene

Changes.. Are scary but worth it

2009-09-23T17:18:00.002+08:00

Hey,

I had yet to update this blog for a long long time.. I doubt anyone reads it anyway..

It is Raya break now. Yea, break means rest.. But not for me... I have like 2 reports and a summary to hand up next week. Oh yea... and not forgetting the dreaded Natural Products in Medicine class test which holds 85% of the final year result... Exciting huh.. To tell you the truth.. I am not in my full form yet to study.. But I am trying very hard now.. And I know I can do it!!

In between this post and my previous post, alot of things had happened. And the changes are scary. Singlehood... is so so different. It smacks me at the wrong time.. REALLY WRONG TIME. A month away from my finals... It's just perfect ain't it..?? Lol.. Well, fate hits you in the most mysterious ways. Don't you think? I am very tired to even do or say anything for now.. And I can't be afford to be hurt anyway like this anymore.. NO MORE IRIS... silly Iris.. (*lol*). I don't deserve this at all... I DON'T! So for this matter, I put a full stop. May it be forever... and ever.. And move on with someone new.. SOMEONE... (^^).. lol

AND FINALLY! Here's a thank you list to everyone who had and still are here with me when I need em..

Dad and Mum
Ms. Yap
Timothy and Danielle
Angeline and Prema
Martin Jalleh
The 3 muzzies
Everyone else from BM1/08
Raymond Chan the drunkard!
Chia Wen my laopo!
Polly my sis!
GOD!!
And everyone else who kept me in their prayers

Thank you so so so much! Me love you lots!! And I will continue to stay strong. *HUGS AND KISSES*

Iris the neoplastic oncogene (^^)

New Sem... Same Me!

2009-07-07T20:34:00.002+08:00

Here to update my favourite blog again!! *peace*

Well, as you all know... Sem 3 had just started and today is already the 2nd day of it. Well, what do i feel about it? Mixed, Twist and turn.. anything you call it..

3 friends from our batch did not make it to the new sem. This ends with the 28 of us. Kinda sad but there isnt much i can do about it. Just pray that they made the right decision this time round. I miss you guys!

And today is a very very special day for IMU. Tun Dr. Mahathir, our 4th Prime Minister came and visited the university. On top of it, there is a speech on the future of medicine in Malaysia and Nation Building. It was very inspiring! I am so so so glad i got to witness this very special day! He was sitting behind me...*lol*

I just hope this sem turns out well.. But I am so so so not looking forward to Orientation AT ALL! I dont see how bullying juniors makes the juniors bond with us.. Sucks..!

Sigh.. Tired now.. Tmr another long long day... *Hopes for the best*

The neoplastic oncogene

Mini Me Love V2

2009-06-20T15:16:00.001+08:00

Mini Me Love V2

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Parents these few days!

2009-06-11T21:05:00.001+08:00

Wait.. I do not mean mine...

This family *more like mother and a few kids* gets me sighing. You see, I was on my way exiting this shopping mall and then I saw this car reversing. I mean.. What's the big deal with reversing cars.. You see it everywhere and everyday. Just when I shift my focus back to my car door.. I heard, " Mak MAK....Hentilah!!!" *Translation:- Mum Mum! Please STOP". Then, I saw this girl shouting while trying to enter the backseat of the car while the mum *who was driving* was still reversing. Looking properly, I saw that the mum was laughing.

Yes, I know that it is meant to be a joke..! But don't you think this joke comes with a risk??

What will happen if the feet of the girl gets caught in between the tyres? I do not even want to think about it..

GOSH.. I mean... Don't the child's safety mean alot to you? Practical jokes need to be smart too!

Kids get kidnapped from wandering alone in night market, playing in the playground.. I mean, C'mon! I weren't even allowed to wander outside my house ALONE and I am now 21 years old. Not that my parents disallow now, but I realise how dangerous it is... and how my parents will be worried about me.

Don't these parent's even got brain? And when something happen to their kids.. They would act pitiful and ask for sympathy.. Whose fault is it in the first place!!!!

All these things just motivates me to be a good parent... I know I will because I do not want to live a life of regret after anything that happen.. And I believe children MUST be given the outmost attention because they are just so so so VULNERABLE to danger...

sighs~

The neoplastic oncogene

Inhumanities

2009-05-31T21:57:00.002+08:00

Hey,

Been a long time since i penned down my thoughts here..

Well, life's been not that bad. I am on my 1 1/2 month sem break right now. Don't know to consider myself lucky or what but well, I just have to make do with it and wait for time to past.

Anyway, after today, I realised that there are 2 groups of human I really cannot stand nor forgive.

1st Group : Ignorant and Arrogant Obese B*****ds.
Well, went to Taman Gaya and the restaurant was full of people.. SO my parents and I decided to wait for any available seats *Since we have time to kill*. Finally, there was a table near the place where my dad was standing is free. Well, of course we proceed the area thinking that nobodody is going to take that place. Just when we are preparing to take a sit, this fat lady in black. Oh, fat is not the proper word... a gigantic obese lipophilic monster sat down and stare at my dad like want to eat my dad up.. *funny how this human can actually return my dad's killer stare*. haha.. The best thing is, she raised her hand and speak *in mandarin* to another fat lady "Eh go tell -somebody's name- that i found seat already.. ask him come faster. So many people waiting lah..aiyo".. I was like WTH!!! If you want to take the seat or you were already booking the seat just tell us politely lah.. When they left the restaurant, still got the cheek to stare at our table like some KPC... ugh!!!!!

2nd Group : Inhuman unknown b******ds
Well, my dad walked out to a near by shop to buy newspaper. Following him was this darn cute Shihtzu dog *perfectly healthy*. It just kept on following my dad. My dad, thinking that the dog belonged to somebody, just ignore it and went into the shop to buy newspaper. On his way home, he saw the same dog, lying on the roadside motionless. Went nearer to check, he realise that it is dead! DANG! No blood...No wound.... MUST BE SOMEONE POUND HIM TO DEATH LAH.. F F F!!! I mean, he was perfectly healthy! How come die suddenly? Dammit.. IF YOU DONT LIKE DOG JUST CHASE IT AWAY... They clever dog will get it lah. Thank goodness when we came home from shopping.. a kind family took the initiative to bury the dog. Amen...

Well, result is in a few days time.. I really hope i did well.. :)

The neoplastic oncogene----OUT------

i in Iris is....

2009-05-22T20:48:00.000+08:00

iPod..!

Yes, is the love of my life and my baby! *sorry Des*..

Gosh gosh.. I am so so freaking in love with it! It is definitely one thing I will never leave home without..

Anyway~

Yes my exam is OVER. But don't seemed like it.

I never expect post-exam life is so...umm.. how do you call it.. BORING! Where is life at all!! *sighs*.. I really really wish the trip Des and I are planning all these while will work out. It kills me not to see him for such a long time. *sighs*

Just my luck i guess!

Neway, coming July around 3 of my friends getting engaged.. *gasp*. Time passed so so fast and I am so so happy for them :). So now total count 5 friends are already engaged so far. *lol* Dang I feel so so so old. I don't think it will be forever to reach my turn anyways! Work till my hair drop and body karat like a gate so long never painter and end up being like the majority of the lecturers in IMU. Hahaha... *ugh* What to do.. We are just workaholic AREN'T WE? lol *dreams*

Neway, that remind me of the Taylor Swift song *Love Story*

We were both young when I first saw you
I close my eyes
And the flashback starts
I'm standing there
On a balcony in summer air

See the lights
See the party, the ball gowns
I see you make your way through the crowd
And say hello, little did I know

That you were Romeo, you were throwing pebbles
And my daddy said stay away from Juliet
And I was crying on the staircase
Begging you please don't go, and I said

Romeo take me somewhere we can be alone
I'll be waiting all there's left to do is run
You'll be the prince and I'll be the princess
It's a love story baby just say yes

So I sneak out to the garden to see you
We keep quiet 'cause we're dead if they knew
So close your eyes
Escape this town for a little while

'Cause you were Romeo, I was a scarlet letter
And my daddy said stay away from Juliet
But you were everything to me
I was begging you please don't go and I said

Romeo take me somewhere we can be alone
I'll be waiting all there's left to do is run
You'll be the prince and I'll be the princess
It's a love story baby just say yes

Romeo save me, they try to tell me how to feel
This love is difficult, but it's real
Don't be afraid, we'll make it out of this mess
It's a love story baby just say yes
Oh oh

I got tired of waiting
Wondering if you were ever coming around
My faith in you was fading
When I met you on the outskirts of town, and I said

Romeo save me I've been feeling so alone
I keep waiting for you but you never come
Is this in my head? I don't know what to think
He knelt to the ground and pulled out a ring

And said, marry me Juliet
You'll never have to be alone
I love you and that's all I really know
I talked to your dad, go pick out a white dress
It's a love story baby just say yes

Oh, oh, oh, oh
'Cause we were both young when I first saw you...

Every girls' dream right?

lol..

Just my random thoughts anyways..

Been surfing around these few days on some online store.. Saw this terrific bracelet and I LOVE IT!

http://twinkle-collection.blogspot.com/

B009 is so freaking nice!!!

*swoon*

Sigh~

The neoplastic oncogene

Contentment and Happiness......

2009-04-26T11:47:00.002+08:00

Yes,

You know all those problem I had mentioned in my previous post???

I now proudly and happily announce to everyone that IT IS SETTLED...! Owh gosh, how happy am I.. Somehow I have to feel content from this bah...who cares now.. I am happy..!!!

You know what people, I have a dream.. A dream... that I will control my temper and be the girlfriend that he wants me to be.. However, i really really hope that the does not take advantage of this. It is really about an equilibrium of give and take. Since I already give in.. I really hope that he would at least let go abit.. So that there isn't any unfairness going on here.

Dammit. I am loving him more day by day. The more quarrel we have.. I found myself loving him even more. Thinking about all the guys that had came in and out of my life since teenage years *all the crushes etc*.. I dont know why this particular guy appeal to me. Somehow, I dont seemed to find myself loving anyone else.

I dont know if he feels the same.. Although I want to.. However, I do not think i can force him.

Dear.. I LOVE YOU..

The neoplastic oncogene

Yaddas yaddas in life....

2009-04-24T14:43:00.003+08:00

Yes,

I am unhappy, very unhappy with a certain aspects of life. However, I guess I got to live with it since nobody *other than a certain few types of people in IMU* understands how i truly felt. What they say is true. Well, how you define FUN? To me, it is spending time with someone you feel happy and content with. But this FUN comes with a limit that a few "cluster of people" should know. I think this cluster of people should be contented with what they have rather than going around looking for more FUN and excitement in life.

Neway, enough of my rantings which may make a cluster of people who read this unhappy *if they even read it lah..* Look, I am happy now. With what I have. A boyfriend, and a few friends I am comfy with. I AM HAPPY. I dont care where and when i hang out with them I AM HAPPY. I dont care how long I hang out with them. I AM HAPPY! Yes, I AM HAPPY AND CONTENTED!

Today is the last day in this semester. Going into a 2 weeks study break and FINALS will be knocking on my door. I really do hope i do well this semester. So that I can proceed to my next. But... somehow, I want this kind of life to end. Because it is killing me... Read on and i will tell you why..

These few days, I have tonnes and tonnes of tiffs with the certain someone that i love so much. I know he might think that it is unecessary for me to think and feel that way. I just think that it is the difference in people mindset sometimes. But somehow, after talking with some of my best friends, i find that I am not in fault of doing anything at all. I have the rights to be paranoid. Because every girl does. Like guy's ego, it is OUR instincts sometimes. Some people call it intuition. Yes i know when he is reading this post he will be rolling his eyes. But it is true. To every girls, it is their hopes and dreams to find this guys who thinks that they are special.. That nobody else in this world can take their position in his heart. Once they do not feel good about something, this is when their self esteem falls drastically. I know i trust him. Whole heartedly I love and trust him. But, how strong a brick is.. it is impossible that nothing and break or shatter it into pieces. This is exacly how i feel.

Sometimes i wonder in what position am I in his life now. But, I really truely miss him. I hate being apart from him. Hate it when he enjoys with his friends more than he enjoys time with me. Trust me no girls wants to be in this position at all. I want this life to end. I want a life together.. me and him.. together. But till now.. I can only listen to Les Miserables and cry my heart out.

On My Own - Les Miserables

And now I'm all alone again, no where to go no one to turn to,
I did not want you money sir, I came out here cause I was told to,
And now the night is near,
And I can make believe he's here.

Sometimes I walk alone at night
When everybody else is sleeping
I think of him and then I'm happy
With the company I'm keeping
The city goes to bed
And I can live inside my head.

On my own
Pretending he's beside me
All alone, I walk with him till morning
Without him
I feel his arms around me
And when I lose my way I close my eyes
And he has found me

In the rain the pavement shines like silver
All the lights are misty in the river
In the darkness, the trees are full of starlight
And all I see is him and me for ever and forever

And I know it's only in my mind
That I'm talking to myself and not to him
And although I know that he is blind
Still I say, there's a way for us

I love him
But when the night is over
He is gone, the river's just a river
Without him the world around me changes
The trees are bare and everywhere
The streets are full of strangers

I love him
But every day I'm learning
All my life I've only been pretending
Without me his world will go on turning
A world that's full of happiness
That I have never known!

I love him
I love him
I love him
But only on my own.

***

Dear, if you are reading this again, i really hope you understand why am i doing some things i do sometimes. I love you so much that I am the happiest when I am with you. Nobody else but you.

The neoplastic oncogene

Happiness is nothing but myth.....

2009-04-19T13:34:00.002+08:00

Hey people,

I know... long time since i blogged. The problem is i simply do not have the time to do so. Job and practical is getting into my nerve.. so much that I can't seemed to have time for myself. Not only that.. I don't have the time to BE myself. You see.. an Iris should be carefree and happy...

MYTH! lol

Anyway, let me update you guys regarding the daily hassles of my life in IMU.

First of all, let me start with the result of election. Yes, I got the post as VP (medical Science) I was happy. But apart of me am scared. Scared that life is going to be different. Indeed, it does. I dont have the time for myself anymore. I dont have the time to hang out with my friends anymore. My life practically revolves around meeting and more meeting. I admit i get myself into this. But i am ok.. I am coping with it. Let's just hope that it does not affect my studies. I do not want it to.

With great powers come great responsibilities. With great responsibilities come high expectations. This cycle never ends right?

Nextly, I am 21!!! Yes.. and official ADULT. *sigh*. This year's celebration was a memorable one.. and it lasted for a week. Yes, you didn't hear me wrong. It lasted for a week. On Friday night, My parents came to KL all the way to JB. I am so so touched *Thanks daddy and mummy*. Then on Saturday, Desmond join my parents and my relative to have a massive dinner. On Sunday, Des and i went to KLCC to have Vietnamese.. Yes yes.. I so miss the food. On monday, I had a private date with Angeline *You see, it suppose to be a whole group of us. One particularly STOOPID meeting cancels everything*. And yea, Angie and i watched the movie He is just not into you.. or somthing like that. The same night itself, Hui San and gang.. *my darlings* came over to my house and gove me a HUGE surprise!!! *thank you so much guys* Just when I thought everything is over on wednesday, my darling coursemates together with LaiLai fanclub threw me a nice surprise AGAIN! And then, Tatt jhong timmeh naiteng sam yeeleong and i went to midvalley and have a nice lunch together. FINALLY, yesterday itself I was out with Desmond Sharon RHohini and Hazim to KLCC *again* and had Chili's. Nit bad that place.. But it costed us a bomb!!! lol

Final note.. I would like to thank all you guys so so so much for making my 21st such a memorable one. *hugs and kisses* Love you guys!

Note to my dear,
Sorry for everything and I still love you...

The neoplastic oncogene

Life is a Rollercoaster...

2009-03-27T21:28:00.003+08:00

Yea Yea.. I know i know...

It has been ages since i last update this poor blog of mine.

I will try and try my very very to fill you guys in as much as possible with all my ongoings now ok?

First of all, I had been very very busy in University lately. With elections.. Yea, ELECTIONS...

I really do not know what inspires me to join the SRC in the first place, but I really do not want to be someone who just sits down and complain all day long without doing anything. But at the same time, I really do not know if i am up to this job or not. I guess it is my self esteem playing against me.. But i really dont want people to think that I am naive. Who am i to take on this job.
I know there are better people than me out there.. But why me??

These few days my mind was in a mess.. Juggling with everything at once... I would really want to admit.. Without my friends' constant support i do not think i can make it through these few weeks. Which will be crucial for me.. class tests.. reports...tasks.. everything seemed important. I do not want to disturb Desmond too. I know he is busy and he is stress up. So I am pretty much venting on my own. Running around....

I do not think i will be a good leader

I do not know.......

Today's Hustings... was not near brilliant.. But i knew I tried my best..

I want to thanks my friends who were there to support me.... clap for me... and waste their time waiting for my turnn...

Greatly appreciate it guys..

I promise I will NOT let you guys downnn.. I will try my best kay?

P/S Dear, I know you are busy these few days, I am sorry if i added any fuel to your fire. I do not mean it. Eventhough I really wish you are here with me... I am ok.. I know education is more important. And let's do this a us together will build this nice home... and life together.

The neoplastic oncogene

Nostalgia of the Neoplastic Oncogene

2009-03-04T20:25:00.003+08:00

Dammit,

Life was.................................

TIRING...

To admit it i never feel so tired that i think breathing is a hassle in life.

Especially when it comes to life in IMU, I wouldn't say it is too terrible but then serious life there is TIRING. I seriously don't see why the Pharmacy students say that they have no time for this and that and that they are so stress and all. WHat about us? Have you ever tried looking into our timetable and compare who are the stress and busy ones? Tell me you have your PBLs and portfolio.. Trust me your that portfolio cannot compare to our AIR topics at all.. DO you want to know why?? Because your PORTFOLIO is a GROUP project.. compared to our stinking AIR topic which we have to mug ourselves and read up stinking article to summarise it ALONE..not in group but ALONE!.. But the problem is the articles given did NOT really anwers any questions for us. AND PORTFOLIO is tough? THINK AGAIN DUDE! And we have PBL too... (but i don't mind PBL)

I can still remember when LaiLai nags about 1lecture 3 self studies and when a certain lecturer ask us to find some info ourselves... THey will grumble and complain that they have NO TIME... Lol.. You should really look at us man!

Eye bags seems like a norm between all BioMed students in IMU now. It is like people don't even need to look at our tags to know that we are BIOMED student. Coz all we do is walk around like zombies.... And we were seen rushing our practical reports and rushing from lectures after lecture. When my dad asked me to relax... HOW COULD I? I don't even have the time to catch the breather! And test is like NEXT WEEK...! SOMEONE HELP ME!! PLEASE.....

So the only way to suppress all these stress in me is by volunteering for every haematology practical and to binge eat. I can't stand it anymore.. I am going crazy.. So crazy that I rather not live anymore. Friends... Yes, I may seemed normal.. but, i have difficulty.. I am the same as you guys.. I am struggling in studying too... Please don't over estimate me....

However, thanks to my friends... I can still stand up and fight this fight.. Coz I know I am not alone... And that this fight belongs to US... US BIOMED STUDENTS OF IMU. Fellow cohort... Let's show the world that we are not weaklings! Lets get through this together!

P/s Thanks dear for everything and good luck in your tests and presentations.. You can do it.. We are doing this together

The Neoplastic Oncogene

Blood blood and more blood

2009-02-19T18:36:00.005+08:00

Hey peeps!

I am back to report again about my ever so excited week!!!

First it was my very very first venepuncture (drawing blood from the vein). I was partnering with Prema who did an excellent job in drawing my blood. However, I did not get any blood tho. Prem's veins was too too fine. A noob like me shouldn't touch. I wanted to do it agian.. but Sr. Cheang dont let me to. However, it was ok!!! And I gained great experience about it!! I will never every forget this week!

That was me with prema and our supervisor Sr. Cheang

Cotton!!

Hehe.... Another thing.. This week itself, we were surrounded by tight schedule with 6 practicals in a week. It was tiring.... But the first practical today was fun! I pricked my fingers 4 times in order to get a proper blood smear. The first prick, my blood clotted too fast, so got to do another time. The second time was almost there but the lecturer dropped my capillary (for another test). The third time, my bloodsmear got no white blood cell to count.. so got to do another time....

There you go four times.. But i relly want more!!! MOre is good!! hehehe.....~~

I know I am crazy.. I think it is due to the amount of stress! Sigh~~

The neoplastic oncogene

What a valentines.....

2009-02-15T22:30:00.002+08:00

Yesterday was valentines...!!!

Yes! Who else will I go out with.. lol~ I enjoyed myself very very much.. Firstly we went to sing KTV... Then we go makan Jap... And finally we go to One FM concert where i saw Daniel Lee and Gary! Haha.... I was in cloud 9~~!

There's so so so so much to say, yet so little energy and chance..

Later then!!

The neoplastic oncogene!

PS Thanks Dear for everything

What a weekend!!!

2009-02-10T22:53:00.002+08:00

Aix,

No more holidays and back to UNI life again. But I really do not Think it is a hassle *other than all those reports and assignments*.. I now know who I can really hang out with and who are those people I can call friends~

I had the best outing with my ex-school mate recently. I had a bunch of fun fun fun.... How I wish I am as carefree as them. How I wish this isnt my path. It is not that I am dissatisfied or what not.. BUt lookin at them and I look at myself left me asking myself... Why am I torturing myself like that. Sigh~

Anyway anyhow... I am happy as I want to be.... And I am glad I finally found where i belonged. I finally realise the real happiness is not stuck with a friend... But go out and talk with everyone. You will somehow find a happiness in it.

By the way...was at Sunway Pyramid 2 days ago.. And a group of cupid came up to me and my bunch of friends and ask us to leave a valentines day message,...

You can watch how we make a fool out of ourselves by going...

http://www.heartu.com.my

Go to struck by cupid and click video gallery....

You will see under singing, Iris Goh and buddies.. There you go.. Laugh your heart out... hahaha

The neoplastic oncogene

LaiLai lai wo men kuo xing nien!

2009-01-26T15:47:00.002+08:00

Alright....

It is the Lunar New Year. This year is the year of the Ox...

I didn't really contributed this new year..*like it even make any difference from every year* However, I get to fill my big and hungry stomach till round round......

BAsically, this NEw year is waaay different from every other year. And I predict that it is going to stay this way for a while.. since my bro is stuck in SIngapore and in SIngapore it is school on the 3rd day of the Lunar New Year.

Since I bet you guys are not gonna be convince about my rantings on food and my stomach.... Let me update you on what are the food residues I have in my stomach so far...

Reunion dinner... ate not much.. *which i think it was an accomplishment*
The breakfast in paternal grams this morning.. You see I basically ate the leftover food from reunion dinner. It's a taboo to eat finish the dishes on Reunion dinner. Since not many people this morning... I ATE ALOT... LIKE ALOT...
The minute I reach Kluang, we set our foot into a Restaurant to have lunch the maternal side of the family.. Here I ate ALOT too!!!
Just finished a bowl of tang sui..

Ok... if this still havent convince you.. Let me tell you what I am expecting soon.... or the coming few days of New Year...

Tonight my maternal grandma will be cooking..another round of dinner....
Tommorow yee sang lunch with maternal side of family
On Wednesday, going to Singapore with my boyfriend's family to Singapore for dinner.
Sunday, Tatt Jhong Open House.
Next Wed, BM108 reunion...

Now you know what I mean. I think I am so gonna be FAT! HELP ME!!!!!

HEEEEELLLLLLLPP!!!

The neoplastic oncogene n_n

MY Handwriting analysis... Darn true~ freaky

2009-01-20T22:57:00.001+08:00

Iris is a very emotional person with a broad range of emotions from the highest highs to the lowest lows. She feels emotional situations very strongly. She'll flash to the very peaks of elation, sweeping everything before her. Then, for some reason unknown to herself, she will burn out emotionally. These mood swings can be very disturbing to her. Sometimes, she feels that she can no longer produce anything. But, after given some time alone to "recharge her emotional batteries", she will spring back into action.

Because Iris feels situations intensely, she relates easily to others' problems. If she is not careful, when she comes into contact with someone who is in a depressed frame of mind, she will also suffer the same emotions and change moods. Iris reacts impulsively, without much thought before hand. She may plan everything in detail before she even begins, then do it completely different when the time comes to carry it through.

Iris has a strong need for affection. She thrives on touching and being touched. Iris desires being told that she is loved, every day. She enjoys being the center of attention. She loves attention, sometimes she even retells stories that got her attention earlier.

Iris has the possibility of being a actor or natural born salesperson, simply because she relates so well to other people. She likes expressing how she feels, what she is doing, and what she plans to do. She is a people person.

She will work most efficiently in a people orientated job as opposed to a job working alone on an assembly line (that would drive her insane.)

People that write their letters in an average height and average size are moderate in their ability to interact socially. According to the data input, Iris doesn't write too large or too small, indicating a balanced ability to be social and interact with others.

Iris will demand respect and will expect others to treat her with honor and dignity. Iris believes in her ideas and will expect other people to also respect them. She has a lot of pride.

Iris will be candid and direct when expressing her opinion. She will tell them what she thinks if they ask for it, whether they like it or not. So, if they don't really want her opinion, don't ask for it!

In reference to Iris's mental abilities, she has a very investigating and creating mind. She investigates projects rapidly because she is curious about many things. She gets involved in many projects that seem good at the beginning, but she soon must slow down and look at all the angles. She probably gets too many things going at once. When Iris slows down, then she becomes more creative than before. Since it takes time to be creative, she must slow down to do it. She then decides what projects she has time to finish. Thus she finishes at a slower pace than when she started the project.

She has the best of two kinds of minds. One is the quick investigating mind. The other is the creative mind. Her mind thinks quick and rapidly in the investigative mode. She can learn quicker, investigate more, and think faster. Iris can then switch into her low gear. When she is in the slower mode, she can be creative, remember longer and stack facts in a logical manner. She is more logical this way and can climb mental mountains with a much better grip.

Iris's true self-image is unreasonably low. Someone once told Iris that she wasn't a great and beautiful person, and she believed them. Iris also has a fear that she might fail if she takes large risks. Therefore she resists setting her goals too high, risking failure. She doesn't have the internal confidence that frees her to take risks and chance failure. Iris is capable of accomplishing much more than she is presently achieving. All this relates to her self-esteem. Iris's self-concept is artificially low. Iris will stay in a bad situation much too long... why? Because she is afraid that if she makes a change, it might get worse. It is hard for Iris to plan too far into the future. She kind of takes things on a day to day basis. She may tell you her dreams but she is living in today, with a fear of making a change. No matter how loud she speaks, look at her actions. This is perhaps the biggest single barrier to happiness people not believing in and loving themselves. Iris is an example of someone living with a low self-image, because their innate self-confidence was broken.

Iris is sarcastic. This is a defense mechanism designed to protect her ego when she feels hurt. She pokes people harder than she gets poked. These sarcastic remarks can be very funny. They can also be harsh, bitter, and caustic at the same time.

Something is incomplete in Iris's life. She feels frustration relating to her physical needs and desires. Somewhere in her life there is some disappointment, non-fulfillment, and interruption. This is very likely to relate to Iris's sexual needs.

For a graphologist, the spacing on the page reflects the writer's attitude toward their own world and relationship to things in his or her own space. If the inputted data was correct Iris has no white space or margins on a typical sheet of paper. Iris fills up every last inch on the top, right, left, and bottom. Hmmm. If this is true, then Iris has a very aggressive personality toward others and quite frankly lacks a bit of respect for the space and property of other people. I would be surprised if Iris just comes into someone's home and helps herself to a drink in the refrigerator. This can be both an obnoxious personality trait and it can be assertive and effective in getting what you want. There isn't much fear of getting in trouble here, Iris finds plenty of reasons to break the rules and get in trouble. (Okay, perhaps when she was younger, not anymore?) Basically, people with no margins are a handful.

The Neoplastic Oncogene n_n

Back to UNi life...

2009-01-13T19:50:00.007+08:00

Hey people...

Everyone must be wondering what happen to me after this "not that long" dissapearance.

Well, I am back in KL *The line was darn sucky* and monday was the first day of my uni life as a semester 2 undergraduate for IMU Biomedical Science programme. There were both happy and sad feelings on that very day. We lost 9 of our colleagues who cannot sail through semester 1. I miss them alot. Hoping that I would have the chance to see them again. Now, with only the 32 of us fighting and struggling now.. everything suddenly seemed so.... quiet.

Secondly, our timetable is VERY the hectic! The first day lecture is already kill soul tough and GOSH did I mention I tired and tired!!!??? You see, there was this module where we have to combine with SEMESTER 4 BPHARM students. And since they find it tough... what about us? C'mon! We are only in our semester 2 this time around. And we are stuck in heavy schedules and tough modules. And loads of PBLs and AIRs.. Am I dead or what??? What to do.. Just have to live with it.

Happily, I am elected as the female batch rep of my course. I seriously don't know how everyone think of me and I don't really accept myself having that post with me yet. I really dont know what should i do... Hopefully everyone is OK with me taking over Jeevitha. I really hope so.

Anyway, on the first day, there was this huge gap between lectures... So Timothy, Tatt Jhong, Nai Teng, Yee Leong, Samuel and I decided to walk to Bukit Komanwel to have a stroll... we too alot of crappy pictures... hahaha.. crazy us!

I dont whether to envy or pity tatt jhong, haha...*the one stoned on the far right*

Timmeh and friends??? hahaha

Crappy part one

Crappy part 2

tarzan to be...-_-ll

Anyway... after the craziness yee leong tatt jhong nai teng and i decided to head over to the mamak and have a drink, since the weather so darn hot. And guess what i saw in my drink.....
The ultimate phobia of mine....

A bee!!!

You tell me how am i suppose to eat there anymore! Dang...

Anyway, I went to help out for IMU Open Day today. It was fun! In my course only 4 people volunteered, Tatt Jhong Yee Leong Matthew and I where only Tatt Jhong and I are full day there. All in all everything was fun there and the Eng Lai stalking project was fun too!!!

That's all I better post this entry before the line went faulty again..

The neoplastic Oncogene n_n

The little nyonya

2009-01-06T12:05:00.005+08:00

After so so long, The Little Nyonya has finally come to an ending. For those people who don't know what am I talking about, it is the current Mediacorp production which everyone is crazy about.

It is something away from the norm which Singaporeans will direct. Somemore, knowing that my grandpa is Peranakan makes me even more interested in this show. I had only missed a few episodes but am glad I hadnt miss the last few parts which are the important and exciting part of the show!

This drama revolves around a very traditional Peranakan family in Malacca before WW2, The Huangs. I dont really know much about the beginnning But what i know grandpa Huang has 2 wifes. The elder wan Tua Ji is evil and do not like the mistress.. Hence, the bullying of the daughter of the younger wife, Juxiang *Played by my "jie" Jeanette Aw"* who is a deaf mute. After much torturing and struggle... The grandpa Huang decided to marry off Juxiang to a rich lecherous fella who disowns his own ancestors, Charlie Zhang. Not wanting to give in to fate... Juxiang runs away and later being saved by the ever so handsome Japanese Yamamoto Yousuke! They got married and had a daughter named Yueniang.

However, their love did not last long as the WW2 breaks in. Yousuke being a Japanese was victimise and he has to leave the family, leaving Juxiang taking care of the kid alone. After more struggle, Juxiang and Yousuke passed away. Yousuke due to war and Juxiang due to internal injury. Little Yueniang somehow found her way to the Huang household. She was treated as a free servant and again being tortured. However, not being deaf mute like her mum, she has a bold personality and enable to speak for herself. She met Young Master Chen, Chen Xi *Who was mesmerised at first sight* and decided to lie to her that he is only a chaffuer for the Chen family. You see the Chens and the Huangs are relatives through marriage and business partners. AT the beginning of their courtship, not knowing the real identity of each party, Yueniang was known as "Huan Wo Ci Tang" which means give me back my chicken soup while CHen Xi was known as "Niu Zai" aka Cowboy. SOmehow or rather love sparks but due to the different in status both of them are not fated to each other even though they love each other like mad.

This part was quite draggy but to cut short... alot more struggle...CHen Xi somehow marry Zhenzhu a spoiled brat chosen by Chor chor *His great grandma* to ward off eveil spirit..*Chen Xi was seriously ill and almost dead at that time* He has no say in the marriage and all. But he hates ZhenZHu like mad.....

Cutting long story short... Chen Xi end up marrying Libby *England friend* and have 6 kids while Yueniang marry an English lawyer Paul. She couldnt conceive but she adopted Yuzhu *Zhenzu's sis who gone mad* son.

Now, Yueniang is old... telling the story to her grand daughter, Anqi.. She finally dies....

Casts overview..

Jeanette Aw as both deaf mute Juxiang and Daughter Yueniang..
She is my "jie" and she is the BEST!

Yamamoto Yousuke...! He is Hot!

NiuZai, CHenxi...! hehe...another good looking one!

The couple~ hehe

Yuzhu.. poor thing, being rape and she went crazy~

The big matron of the Huang family.. the evil one~

Evil aunt who bad mouth her way to Yueniang's suffering

Zhenzhu... Really a pig lah!

The kind hearted ChorChor

Second Towkay of the Chen family.. Chen Xi's uncle. Wooing Juxiang but fate don't put them together

The useless Jincheng and his lover *wife's sister* Xiuzhen

Jincheng's wife... forget what's her name

The evil Robert Zhang who tortured Yuzhu until she went mad!

This post is getting long and soon i think no matter how much I talk people still don't know what is it about. To watch the show, it is available on Youtube.. Search for the Little Nyonya.

For more info.. see
http://www.facebook.com/home.php?ref=home#/pages/The-Little-Nyonya/22268538302?ref=mf

All in all... I love the show and the casts! Great job done.. Eventhough there are a few holes here and there towards the ending. I give this show 5 stars for the casts and over all.... particularly ending a 4 star rating.

The neoplastic oncogene n_n

......

2008-12-31T15:28:00.000+08:00

When I was small, and christmas trees were tall,
We used to love while others used to play.
Dont ask me why, but time has passed us by,
Some one else moved in from far away.

(chorus)
Now we are tall, and christmas trees are small,
And you dont ask the time of day.
But you and i, our love will never die,
But guess well cry come first of may.

The apple tree that grew for you and me,
I watched the apples falling one by one.
And I recall the moment of them all,
The day I kissed your cheek and you were mine.

(chorus...)

When I was small, and christmas trees were tall,
Do do do do do do do do do...
Dont ask me why, but time has passed us by,
Some one else moved in from far away.

Dedicated to you...yea you~

2008-12-31T15:07:00.000+08:00

Theres a light
A certain kind of light
That never shone on me
I want my life to be lived with you
Lived with you
Theres a way everybody say
To do each and every little thing
But what does it bring
If I aint got you, aint got ?
You dont know what its like, baby
You dont know what its like

To love somebody
To love somebody
To love somebody
The way I love you

In my brain
I see your face again
I know my frame of mind
You aint got to be so blind
And Im blind, so very blind
Im a man, cant you see
What I am
I live and breathe for you
But what good does it do
If I aint got you, aint got ?

I HATE MY NEW YEAR EVE!

2008-12-31T14:45:00.001+08:00

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Last day....of the year!

2008-12-31T09:18:00.002+08:00

Bonjour!!!

It is the last day of the year. Here I am.. stuck in JB.. No countdown.. No..nothing..NOTHING at all! Even my brother is going for a countdown in Singapore. Des meeting old friends back in KL.. WHAT ABOUT ME..? Stuck at home writing this good for nothing emo post.

At home...

Stuck with my parents..

Tonight...I prefer to rot and die!

I hate this feeling....

ish~

Anyway, as usual on New YEar eve, I will countdown to my top 10 events of the year..

So here I go..

10. Start of uni life.....
09. My first real work..
08. My STPM results... *terrible*
07. The giving up of my medicine dream.
06. Christmas.. *Most boring ever*
05. The meeting of new friends and new life *more freedom*
04. Twilight... *Edward Cullen*
03. Obama as president *A change where Malaysia should really follow*
02. My birthday.. *I will never ever forget it*
01. Today.. *The most meaningless day of my life*

Aix.. I know...

Even so it is holiday but still?

Nobody is around... so what's the point at all???

I want to enjoy my countdown like every year...

I want to...

But i can't

However......My New Year's Resolution... *Like it wouldn't be broken like that*

Be a good girl
Throw a huge 21st Birthday bash for myself *13th April*
Study hard.
Healthy
Save money
Play better guitar
Get cGPA of 3.5 and above
Get engaged *Like it will ever happen*
Friends that last forever

I guess that's all for now...

Happy New Year people...

The neoplastic oncogene..

One of those days again.....

2008-12-30T12:34:00.002+08:00

Yes, it is one of those days again. Those low esteem days... Those.. Painful days.. Those days I feel like I am nobody.. To my family.. to everyone. Perhaps I am born like that. I don't know.

You see I just came back from my ex-school to get my bro's PMR result. Yesterday, I asked my dad.. What time will he be fetching me there. We were speaking in mandarin. Truth to be told.. I am the one who listened wrongly. He say "shi dien" meaning 10 o'clock but the foolish and blur me thought I heard "shi-er dien" 12 o'clock. It is kinda frustrating thinking that we were eating and talking with your mouth full can lead to alot of confusion. And this happen.

I blame myself for being blur...

I blame myself for being slow..

I blame myself...~

I look at my bro, a scholar. Why can't I be like him? I am the eldest.. Why nobody treat me as the eldest? We are from the same parentage... Why can't we have the same level of intelligence? Why can't I be as smart as him? Why can't I be the image which my bro can follow. Why can't I be the ideal sis instead? Alot of question came into my mind.

I know it is stupid to compare with a 15 year old boy. But I cannot help it..

Back to the story.. I woke up..thinking that I still had time in my hands.. I went online and took my time in things. Then he came back..my dad came back. He shouted.. "You don't want to go then fine.. I go myself" I am like what the heck? I phoned my mum and confirmed that he said 10 o'clock I phoned him to apologise..Yet, I was being ignored. End up the result will only be out at 11 o'clock...

Why am I stupid? How can I not want to go collect my bro's result? I want to... with all my heart. He is my only bro. Although sometimes, he may treat that he don't have such a sister. Which I accept it. Nobody would want me to be their sister. Me being slow and not smart and all. He rather look up to other people like his seniors and all those smart mentors and everything. Who am I to him? I am like a small fry. But seriously.. I love my bro.. I love my family. Just that sometimes stuff went on too far.. I just...too slow

I hope...I wish....

I can be someone better...

My congrats to bro...for getting straight A's

The neoplastic oncogene

After a long long break from the internet world

2008-12-29T11:06:00.002+08:00

Yo Yo people!

I know i know.. It was a long long break.. and i admit it. The reason being, my bro is around and i let him to use the internet instead since he will be going back to Kiasu-land soon *He was back safely yesterday* So, that left me here... with nothing since Dear is also back in KL. But I am ok lah. I will somehow find stuff to do wan.

Xmas was not as noisy and fun as before. In fact it was not like Xmas at all. I know Xmas is not all about rceiving. But that's what make it fun right? hahaha... However...

These are what i got for Xmas this year..

Cullen family crest pendant from DarDar..
Breaking Dawn from bro
Tee from aunty
Necklace from Stef
Chocs and hollywood star from Des sis
Chocs from Des mum
Bottle of love from Jasmine

OKlah...not that bad lah right?

Anyway I havent wished everyone..mERRY xMAS!!!

The neoplastic oncogene n_n

Tralalala-ing in Kiasuland

2008-12-19T11:01:00.010+08:00

Hello, you guys might be thinking what causes my disappearance these few days! haha.. Like you guys even perasan lah... well...

*ahem*

I was across the causeway with Desmond. *Singapore lah*

Did I have fun? Haha... In a way..yes! In a way..not quite. Don’t worry I will not talk about the not fun part. I will just roughly give you guys an insight of my trip. With low quality pictures of course!

On Wednesday, I met Desmond in City Square to have a short breakfast before we walk over to the custom. After the so called short breakfast, we proceeded to the new custom. Mind you, the custom was WAAAAAAAAAAAAY better than the previous one. At least I need not walk such a long distance under cramp up condition and hot sun.

After all the tilly tally...We finally reach Kiasu-land at around 11am.

First stop in Kiasu-land..! Vivo-city... We had our lunch at Superdog and moved on to our target destination..Sentosa. You see, you are suppose to take a train from Vivo-city *Sentosa Station* to Sentosa itself. When we reach Sentosa, my watch read 12pm. BAD TIMING. The scorching hot sun went into my eyes immediately. I changed into my beach wear and off we go!

First, we decided to try the LUGE ride before we go play with water and sun bath. To take a Luge Ride, we were suppose to take the skyline..”naked cable car” up the hill and slide downhill on a luge. I think that is what you call it lah~haha.. Seriously I was a little terrified..*slight height phobia* and I do not really enjoy the skyline. However, the Luge ride was fantastic!

I don't look scared here..But I was terrified!

Crazy!!!

Yay! Beach time!! We decided to pay visit to the ever famous beach on Sentosa. Siloso beach. One side, the scenery was breath-taking. Strolling further... You see jetty... -_-lll I do not know if I have a picture of that.. Let’s see. It is not a beautiful sight. But not horrible either. Being me I love to critique Kiasu-land very much, I do not seemed to think that ANYTHING is beautiful there..because 99.9% of the things there are fake! haha... I mean, their flora and fauna and all...athletics..scholars *What I mean here is..They are not even MADE IN SINGAPORE*...haha... Whatever lah.

You see the ships next to the island? wakaka

You seee!!!

Oh yea, while looking for a comfy spot to sunbath... we saw the Biomedic long time best friend!

Sargassum binderi!

Well, we settled down on a nice little spot under the coconut tree and the cam whoring began that was before we decided to take a soak into the icy cold water. hehe....

The sand!!!

What you looking at! Help me with the sun screen!

Haha..thats me on some bridge!

Smile for the camera!

Another one!

Des: Argh! my eyes...
Iris: Smile lah!

Drinks!!

No comments...

After a while, we decided to wash up and move around...before sunset~ keke...

Under the hut..With Iris!

I will follow you~

Siiiiiiloso...b****

Spot the sting ray!

Penyu!

Finally....sun set~...awwww

After sunset... we took the train to Vivo-city again to have our dinner, drop by in orchard for a few pictures. and off to Desmond sister's house.. We got "lost" and ended up sight-seeing around Clark Quay~ And on Wednesday, it was ladies night mah.. We were in our shorts and slippers and huuuge backpack.. People pulak in their clubbing attire.. Trust me, they were giving us the stare.. Like "Why are these weirdos here? CLubbing... no way...hahahaha". That's what they think lah...I think!

Anyway after roaming around Clark Quay without proper guide... we finally found the condo we were looking for. But the problem now is... the Add is A-07-something something. And there were 4 A blocks around! whatte heck! Yea, you guessed it right, we ended up chasing after people..*You need resident pass to access to the lift* and went to every 7th floor of block A we can find. -_-lll.. Tiring day~ Dang. After a nice bath.. I KO-ed!

The next day, we had breakfast with Desmond's sis at Central then we proceed to meet my brother in Newton Station. We went to Plaza Singapura but ended up empty handed because I was officially bankrupt! However, thanks to my bro, he got me Breaking Dawn! Yippie..!

We reached Johor Bahru at around 4pm. and we decided to chill for a little while in City Square. Ok...Funny situation alert~

You see, both handphones of Des and I went dead when we were at Singapore. So Des decided to change some coins so that both of us can use the public phone. He walk so fast..My bro was waaaay behind and I was trying to catch up to Des while waiting for my bro. My leg hurts so dang much. Soon, I lost him. I thought he would buy sweet so I went to the convenience stall at the ground floor to look for him. Not there.I asked my bro to wait outside McDonald while I walk around to search for him. Last resort...I went to the information counter and told the stupid fella over there... "Eh, I lost my friend can help make announcement ah?" The fella look at me "Budak ke??" I say no...and she told me cannot. So I went back and search again. Still cannot find him..I went back to the information counter and from far, I saw Desmond there. In my head I was like saying "Dang, Dont make the announcement YET!" Just before I reach *I was sooo close* I heard....

"Paging for Miss Iris Goh, Miss Iris Goh please proceed to the Information Counter immediately.

DANG!

I ran there...and Des saw me.... I din know what was i doing I let a faint smile to the fella making the announcement and Desmond laughing in front of me. I dont know what was happening but was indeed happy to see Desmond. Finally...

Des: Where were you...?
Ris: Was walking around looking for you lah
Des: What makes you come here?
Ris: I wanted to make and announcement.
Des: Oic...
Ris: I was there before you actually, but they don't let me.. How come they let you too..
Des: When they asked budak ke? I nodded!
Ris: What???!!!
Des: Hahahaha...you must be the oldest kid who got lost in CS....

Dang, there goes my dignity! Thanks Desmond!

Anyway, we had fun.

For more pictures...check out my Facebook yea?

The neoplastic oncogene n_n

Holiday is FINALLY fun~..for a few days

2008-12-15T10:59:00.004+08:00

Holidays had been there for so long.

But to me, it had just started... -_-lll

Why????

Because the activity has just begun! Not today, but tomorrow!~

Tomorrow me going out with Sharon, Desmond Dear and maybe Kishern for yet another crazy gathering. Hopefully it will still be crazy.. That Hazim don't know where the heck is he. So, we just go on without him..* If you are reading this..SORRY*.. Why the rush? Christmas is coming.. Des time in JB is also running up. He going off to Penang on Fri...*sobs* Anyways...yeap... That is for tomorrow..!

As for Wednesday, Des and I will be going Singapore! Yeap, the 2 of us... Basking under the sun.. So sweet! I had always wanted that to happen! *That reminds me I left my bikini in KL...oops* Dang... Nevermind...! hahaha... And on Thursday, will be meeting up bro in Singapore before I move back to JB and.....

Desmond will be going on to lepak by himself...

Leaving me all by myself...=(

Anyway, must be jolly!!

Christmas is coming!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Yippie!

The neoplastic oncogene n_n

Dad-by Blues

2008-12-14T09:31:00.001+08:00

The big baby at home is at it again.

Yes, The Dad-by. Sometimes he can be Tat good. But sometimes he gets on people's nerve. Well, most of the time he is getting onto people's nerve, namely Mum and I FOR NOW. My bro is lucky he is not home. Or else, he has to see his FUNNY antiques all over again.

What happened?

Well, you see.... Waking up early is very important in MY family. Which I have NO complaints about. But today is Sunday. I would like to openly ask all you guys here....

Does 9.00am in the morning counted late? Unacceptable right?

Got many of you who wakes up at 11am and gets away with it.

Well, for me, this was the scenario.

I wake up and check the time.. It was 8.30am. So, I went back to sleep, since the Dad-by haven't come back. Just nice 5 minutes before 9am. My mum came into the room and ask me to wake up. I just casually wake up lah. Go brush my teeth and all, freshening up to take my breakfast. But so early in the morning, I won't have appetite also lah. But anyhow, I still wake up..

The first thing I saw what's written all over his face was I had commited a HUGE CRIME.. A CRIME THAT DESERVE DEATH PENALTY. Yes, it is like waking up late..*eventhough it IS early* deserve a death penalty and it is a disgrace to him or whatsoever.

So, I give in. Playing good girl, don't want to add more fuel into the fire. I looked around and finally ask...

Ris: So, dad are you cooking tonight?
Dad-by: See first *full stop*

Ris: Dad, don't want to eat noodles ah?
Dad-by: You all eat lah. DOn't want to eat throw away loe.

At this point I cannot take it anymore. I simply say "Dad! What happened?" With this he gave me the STARE.

YES, the STARE he thought everyone is afraid of.

The stare which, I grew immuned of since young.

The stare........which everyone hates and despise!

I cannot take it anymore. I seriously cannot take it.

The way he hits my dog...

I cannot take it...

All in all... I CANNOT TAKE IT!..

I surrender, I want to go back to KL.. My freedom...

Note: This is NOT connected to my previous post. It is another thing all together.

The neoplastic oncogene T.T

I hate it I hate it I HATE IT!

2008-12-13T23:15:00.000+08:00

Yes,

I am going crazy

Going crazy!

I haven't tell anyone about my insomnia. And yes, I have had insomnia. And it is not due to my exam.

My exam had been long gone. And I still cannot get myself to sleep. Even if I sleep, I would wake up every now and then. I simply hate this kind of feeling. Sometimes I cannot take it anymore, I turn to the cough syrup.

Why am I feeling this way...You may ask.

I haven't get over it. Yes! How could I?

You think it is easy? Think again....

It is NOT easy at all. Never been. I know I am being over protective. But who won't? Can a girl even feel good if she was in my shoe?

NO!

NO GIRL WILL....

I had always wanted to shake that image out of my head

But in reality, everything and anything can happen. Just like one minute you think you hate someone. Another minute, you worship him like Hell.

Human changes all the time. That includes the feeling. Everything changes....

Yes, I am falling down. I dont care! I prefer to suffer silently than letting people who don't understand to think that I never trust them enough.

I trust...

But the fear?

Can't be healed.

Call me paranoid.

Call me inconsiderate.

Call me selfish..

Call me whatever you want

I hate it...

I hate it!~

"The only thing the never change is the word change"

The neoplastic oncogene

Pain with a tinge of satisfaction

2008-12-13T10:01:00.000+08:00

I had great fun yesterday!

Yes!

Bowling with my DarDar!

As usual he fetched me from my house and off we went to our favourite ais kacang hang out place to makan. Our food poisoning haven't really recover so we didn't really eat much. After makan off we go to bowling~ Our newfound favourite passtime together. We played one game after another. I couldn't seemed to get enough of it. In fact I think I am addicted to it. Rounding up, we played 6 games non-stop. His hand was already aching. Well, the pain of satisfaction in me has yet to start. *I am yelling like a dim-wit while getting up from bed today*

I felt so darn satisfied. I am this close to my target score. I decided to stop and go home for dinner. Or rather, my boyfriend misses Mochie so much that he wants to see her. Mochie seemed happy with the new food and wide wide fence to play with. I am some proud mama! =P

Did I mentioned after dinner, Dad, Mum, DarDar and I went out for ice-kacang? Yes we did! hehe~ Have had real real fun! I love this kind of homey feeling. Makes me feel so darn warm inside.

I have decided to start saving up so that I can go to Australia next year. If I cannot get to go Australia, I think going Kuching Sarawak will do. Must start planning now. Really, I need to get out of KL and JB for sometime. I need fresh air and new environment. Going Singapore next week! Yippie. Cannot wait for all the stuff installed for me this few days! SO very very happy!

-n-

Seemed like my blog has turned quiet once more. I don't blame anyone. I am not a good blogger. My life ain't exciting to talk about. Anyway anyhow, I would always treat this blog as my personal diary..

-n-

Christmas here I come!!!

The neoplastic oncogene n_n

Once Upon a Birthday...

2008-12-12T09:16:00.000+08:00

Hello people,

I am back again after a long break. Due to lack of inspiration I had decided to blog on something that had happened early this year, before I enter IMU and I haven't have the chance to blog about it.

My Birthday on the 13 April 2008...

Why the birthday this year?

It is one of my favourite birthdays ever
I had mentioned alot of times regarding my idol and nobody seemed to know who is he
I was happiest!

So, now....where should I start...

I should start with the day before my birthday then..

It was a Saturday, and Dear and I was walking around City Square to shop.. *If I was not wrong* When we were about to leave the area, we saw a huge crowd of NOISY PEOPLE shouting.."NO DEAL NO DEAL...".. We were like what the heck??.. Dang! It was NTV 7 At The Mall. Something like a roadshow to celebrate NTV 7 birthday or something. I am quite taken aback and I DID NOT recognise the host AT ALL..! *He looks far more good looking real life than on TV*.. But too bad I have to rush off..! *sighs*

The next day, we went City Square again, with the hope of celebrating my birthday. This time, with my boyfriend, cousin and brother. Des, bro and i reached early and found out that Deal Or No Deal was still going on today!! In my heart was..*YAY GET TO OOGLE AT HIM AGAIN*.. After 30 minutes, my cousin reached the destination and the gameshow just ended. The cast was taking a break. My boyfriend suggested us,*Non and I*..Yea, Non is his name. Don't ask me why! ASK HIM! Shy me ran away. My bro have to catch me from MNG and DRAG ME all the wall to the main atrium where all the casts were. I was bitting my bro's hand I tell you!! I shriek and scream " NO I DON'T WANT". Now, my boyfriend took over my bro's role.. He drag me towards Non, and

Des: Hello, she wants to take a picture with you, It is her birthday today
Non: Oh, hi...Happy Birthday!
Ris: Uh, thank you *blush*
Non: Are you guys from around here??
Des: Yes..
Non: Still studying?
Ris: Yup.
Non: So you want to take a picture? With the whole cast?
Ris: *With you..! Dang* Ummmm...yes.
Non: I think the girls are in toilet.
Des: Why not she take with you first!!??
Ris: *DANG Thanks Des*
Non: Sure!

Picture snapped

Yes, I was looking dodgy at the moment. Look at me! Oh, that girl behind? She is my cousin.

Non: The girls are back, taking them to the Laksa House to eat later!
Ris: Laksa House!
Des: We study nearby!
Non: Oh, I use to live around there. The aunty was my family friend..
Ris: *Nod like a dumb dumb*
Non: Hey, the girls are back, Would you like another picture?
Ris: *Nod like a dumb dumb again*

Picture taken

Only a few of the girls were there. I looked quite ok now. I have to be OK. Coz the NTV 7 people start snapping picture also...

Non: *Intro-ing us to the few girls*
Ris and Des: Hi...hi....hey...hi
Non: Alright, we have to go.. Will be seeing you later?
Ris: We guess we will be coming for the next game..
Non: Alright then...See you!

Then, we walked around....makan cake in secret recipe.. Walk somemore... And it was 4.30!

I rush them down to the atrium!!

Now, they are looking for people to play.. My bro wants me to play, but i don't want. Just when he was about to get angry, I gave it a shot.

Guy: That girl over there! *Signal me to go up the stage*
Ris: Uh......*went up*
Non: Hey, it's you! Hold on~

Just when there were three people on stage, the intoduction started. Until my turn he paused and smiled, "It is her birthday today". The crowd dont't seemed to care... *Who cares*.. And he went on.." Happy birthday again and we shall see how lucky are you alright?". We have to answer a series to easy question and I manage to pull through. Cut long storu short, I accepted the banker's offer of RM30..

C'mon, if you are in the danger zone of getting RM5 and RM30..What can you do right. Unlucky enough my briefcase was RM50 lah! lol~

He ended the show with these words.. "Don't spend all your money in one place yea?"

I was like yea...and I ended up buying...

This with the money and name it "Non"--after him

The rest of the story remained as history.....

Anyway, thank you everyone for making my birthday a memorable one!

Loves!!!

Off to another bowling date with DarDar soon!

The neoplastic oncogene n_n

Home...at last! But I am one sick puppy~

2008-12-09T16:32:00.000+08:00

Yes!

Finally home.....

*Roll myself around the bed and snuggle into my nice nice comforter*

It is not really nice for I have this stupid food poisoning from some chicken rice shop in KL Sentral.
My boyfriend and I puke throughout the night *yesterday* and nothing seemed to stop it. *sigh*

So, just the time I reached JB, I get my dad to bring me to clinic. And it is confirmed as food poisoning.

Unlucky me...*sigh*..

Can't wait for my mum to be back from Hong Kong. Now those goodies she will get for me... =P

Sign off for today...

Hope you guys don't mind my short short posts... Am looking for inspiration!

The neoplastic oncogene n_n

Not yet home although I am suppose to be home?

2008-12-08T17:36:00.000+08:00

HOME.....not yet!

Yes, it was a not very long...long story. Well, it all started when my boyfriend and I decided to grab a late ticket back home. But somehow, both of us realise that non of us had enough cash to buy tickets. -_-lll.

So we decided to go all the way to KL Sentral and try taking a train back home. *so called wise decision because PLaza Rakyat do not have ATM to withdraw money, and the ATM in IMU is not working* We travel all the way there, with the rain pouring and my stomach hurting due to monthly problems and real stomachache....*OUCH* and found out that there are NO MORE TICKETS for today and tomorrow....*sigh*

And so back to Plaza Rakyat with the cash and high hopes of going home. BUT NO! Only 10pm bus is available today, and who the heck is gonna fetch me home at that weird time? DANG! So....it's tomorrow 9.30am bus. Hopefully I can wake up on time. If not...ANOTHER DAY IN KL...

-n-

Regarding my previous post, I had sent my idol an e-mail *as mentioned*. And he replied! He said he was wondering why didn't I go up to say "Hi"..Dang! He recognised me. I feel much better now..

But my stomach is still hurting...

The neoplastic oncogene n_n

Regrets.....More regrets!

2008-12-06T22:25:00.000+08:00

Hey people,

Just came home from a rollercoaster ride. Not technically, but something similar to it.

The nice part about today was Bolt! Yes, Bolt was a nice movie. One should really catch it. I shouldn't give away the fun so much..seriously, it is NOT the typical kiddo kind of animated movie. However, it will make you walk out of the cinema feeling like a kid all over again. If you are not a dog lover, perhaps Mittens the cat and Rhino the hamster will make your day.. The characters are very heartwarming to look at...

Well, the bad part of today was some dumb decision that I had made way before my exam had started. You see, I took part in some lame contest to win a dinner with some bunch of people I won't click with. Yea, adults. Not that I am not an adult..but..*sighs*. What drives me to take part? Well, one of my idol is going to be there. So I was thinking, hey...why not try. Maybe I will get to talk to him and ghet a picture or two with him again?

Well, not that I expect to win... I waited for the result for a week and my list weren't played. Hence, I decided to give up. Just when the day I decided not to listen to the radio, I tuned in for fun..*actually just to listen to his voice* and then all I heard is..the last part of Wonderful Tonight and then my idol saying, my congratulations to Iris for picking up 2 invitations for a wonderful dinner..blah...blah...blah. Yes! Stupid me. I was asking him *my idol* what to do... And he asked me to wait for the publicity team to call me... I waited waited and waited.....

Just 2 days before the dinner itself, I got a call. I do not know what was in my mind that I agreed to attend. I somehow regretted.

Long story short, I did NOT enjoy my night, I went home broken hearted, I did NOT get to talk to him...And no photographs.

It is partly my fault. But, hey...all those ADULTS just sailed through my boyfriend and I after saying a simple "hi"..

I blame myself for avoiding him through out this stupid event.

And NOW I REALLY REGRETTED and I do not know when I am going to see him again..

Anyhow, I just sent him an e-mail to end my guiltiness...

That's about it...

The neoplastic oncogene n_n

Relieved and finally~~ Happy Holiday in peace....=D

2008-12-05T20:00:00.000+08:00

Yay!!!

The dreadful day is over!!! OVER!!

Unless you guys do not know... Today is THE day my End of Semester results are released. Yes!

Lets not get there yet.

I have had many sleepless nights before today. And I am kind of restless now..But deep down inside I am happy! Yes...and relieved..

Today, met up with Timmeh, Danielle and Yee Leong in Midvalley for lunch before the dreadful 3.00pm. It was fun but can feel that everyone was feeling butterflies in their stomach... BUt it was ok...

Reach IMU around 4 and pluck up all my courage to step into the cold cold AAD and collect my result. I was freakingly shivering. And I must ask Des to help me open my result slip for me..* Thanks dear for coming*...

*GULP*

I passed!!!

Yay!!

Biodiversity and Utilisation of Biological Resources - B+
General Chemistry- B
Human Biology - B+
Intro to Professionalism and Personal Development for Biomedical Scientist - C+
Organic Chemistry- C+
Biological Science - A-
Genetics - B
Intro to Medical Laboratory Instrumantation- A-
Statistics for Biomedical Scientists - B+

CGPA- 3.14

English - Pass
Moral Studies- Pass

There you go... I don't say I am satistisfied with my result. But I am not upset about it either. I just think that I have many many more place to improve on. So, I am very very determined that I have to be more hardworking for my next semester... I must not laze around anymore.

After going back...Chia Wen message me to have tea together. And off we go to OUG and lepak for a while before she fetches me back home.

I am very grateful to my parents to have supported me all these while, my dear to be there for me when I come crashing down and all my friends who have helped me in their own ways! Lastly...not forgetting God to have answered my prayer..

AMEN

The neoplastic oncogene n_n

Madnesssss..

2008-12-04T20:29:00.000+08:00

Hey guys,

I hadn't been around for................a day..

And I miss my blog already.

Yesterday I went out with my Form 6 friends namely Love <3, Hazim and Kishern...Oh not forgetting Hazim's "wife" Britney...

Des fetched me from my house at 12 in the afternoon and we proceeded to City Square to meet up with His Royal Highness Hazim bin Ismail after....waiting for so so so long.... We had lunch at some "highclass" mamak and off we go to Leisure Mall to meet up with Kishern...for bowling! Whhhhhoooooopie!!! With my not so cooperative arm, I manage to pull through 2 games. hahaha.... Although I wanted more...

Me... Yea, kinda kokek at the moment...haha

Ain't that a little bit too far away to throw? hahaha

Hmmm.....that's better~ hehe

Britney~

We all wanted to watch Bolt at the moment after the game..but.. No suitable time. Hence the bright decision to head on to City Plaza to play pool~ I did not join in the game because my outfit don't really does justice when I have to bend OH SO LOW......and....*ahem*... So, I emo one side together with Kishern *who do not want to play because he don't know how to play*

Me: Aix...
Hazim: Quick lah..darn lift
Des: Lalalala

Stylo seh someone

Where are ALL the balls???

It was still early after they finish 2 rounds of pool...So, my brightest idea is to..Hey! PLAY PING PONG! Yea, all of us DO NOT know how to play ping pong AT ALL... So we end up picking up balls more then we hit the ball. Lol...

Concentration is the KEY!

Partners for LIFE

Now.....what is PING PONG?

Your's truly!

We were having so much fun until the fella say.."Guys! Times up".. We dragged ourselves to the table nearby.. Smart elects Desmond Hazim and Kishern decided to play a game of chess while I took a breather from the "hard day at work"

The extraordinary chess board..spot the only different?

2 guys having a hard time "concentrating"

A psychiatrist and her patient~haha

I know...i know.......
After messing around in City Plaza, we proceeded to Danga Bay for dinner and more lepak time together... and MORE PICTURES!

I AM NOT LOOKING~

That...don't look right!

Oooops....! We are sorry we did not know~lolz!

We lurk at night! And we rule the night! *cheesy*

Three little vampire pandas finding for food

Of course the big big empty field look so nice.. We are so tempted to try a jumping pix there..Nothing turns out right..

Getting ready to jump....

1....

2....

and................

Yippie!!!!!

And so the camwhoring continues through the night...

Asymptotes minus 2...

ummmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm....rofl!

Finally..a decent pix!

The best picture ever taken!!! YES!

And so, we finally have to leave... But we promised and plan that the next outing will be better than this.. That is when we manage to get Sharon out of the house and Latha to show up before 10...hahaha....

-n-

Tomorrow is result day.. Hopefully I do well.. I hope I got through...

People please...please...pray for me...

Amen..

The neoplastic oncogene n_n

weird tag...Thanks carol

2008-12-02T23:19:00.000+08:00

Dear (the last person who left a comment on your blog).

I don’t really know how to tell you this, but ___1___.I think I realized it when ___2______3___ and I saw you ___4___ ___5___. I’m sure you’re ___6___ enough to understand ___7___. I’m returning ___8___ to you, but I’ll keep ___9___ as a memory. You should also know that I ___10___ ___11___.

___12___.
-Your name-

P/S: You are so lifeless, ___13___,

1. What’s the color of your shirt?
Blue - Our romance is overRed - Our affair is over
White - I’ll join the monastery
Black - I dislike you
Green - Our horoscope doesn’t match
Grey - You’re a pervert
Yellow - I’m selling myself
Pink - Your nostrils are insulting
Brown - The mafia wants you
No shirt - You’re a loser
Other - I’m in love with your sister

2. Which is your birth month?
January - That night
February - Last year
March - your dwarf bit me
April - I tripped on sesame seeds
May - First of May
June - you put cuffs on me
July - I threw up
August - I saw the shrunken head
September - we skinny dipped
October - I quoted Santa
November - your dog ran amok
December - I changed tennis shoes

. Which food do you prefer?
Tacos - In your apartment
Pizza - In your camping car
Pasta - Outside of Chicago
Hamburgers - Under the bus
Salad - As you ate enchilada
Chicken - In your closet
Kebab - With Paris Hilton
Fish - In women’s clothing
Sandwiches - At the Hare Krishna graduation
Lasagna - At the mental hospital
Hot dog - Under a state of trance
None of the above - With George Bush and his wife

4. What’s the color of your socks?
Yellow - Hit on
Red - Insult
Black - Ignore
Blue - Knock out
Purple - Pour syrup on
White - Carve your initials into
Grey - Pull the clothes off
Brown - Put leeches on
Orange - Castrate
Pink - Pull the toupee off
Barefoot - Sit on
Other - Drive out

5. What’s the color of your underwear?
Black - My best friend
White - My father
Grey - Bill Clinton
Brown - My fart balloon
Purple - My mustard soufflé
Red - Donald Duck
Blue - My avocado plant
Yellow - My penpal in Ghana
Orange - My Kid Rock-collection
Pink - Manchester United’s goalkeeper
None - My John F. Kennedy-statue
Other - The crazy monk

6. What do you prefer to watch on TV?
Scrubs - Man
O.C. - Emotional
One Tree Hill - Open
Heroes - Frostbitten
Lost - Scarred
Simpsons - Cowardly
The news - Mongolic
American Idol - Masochistic
Family Guy - Senile
Top Model - Middle-class
None of the above - Ashamed

7. Your mood right now?
Happy - How awful I’ve felt
Sad - How boring you are
Bored - That Santa doesn’t exist
Angry - That your pimples are at the last stage
Depressed - That we’re cousins
Excited - That there is no solution to this
Nervous - The middle-east
Worried - That your Honda sucks
Apathetic - That I did a sex-change
Ashamed - That I’m allergic to your hamster
Cuddly - That I get turned on by garbage men
Overjoyous - That I’m open
Other - That Extreme Home Makeover sucks

8. What’s the color of your walls in your bedroom?
White - Your ring
Yellow - Your love letters
Red - Your Darth Vader
Black - Your tame stone
Blue - The couch cushions
Green - The pictures from
Orange - Your false teeth
Brown - Your contact book
Grey - Our matching snoopy-bibs
Purple - Your old lottery coupons
Pink - The cut toenails
Other - Your memories from the military service

9. The first letter of your first name?
A/B - Your photo
C/D - The oil stocks
E/F - Your neighbour Martin
G/H - My virginity
I/J - The results of your blood-sample
K/L - Your left ear
M/N - Your suicide note
O/P - My common sense
Q/R - Your mom
S/T - Your collection of butterflies
U/V - Your criminal record
W/X - David’s tricot outfits
Y/Z - Your grades from college

10. The last letter in your last name?
A/B - Always will remember
C/D - Never will forget
E/F - Always wanted to break
G/H - Never openly mocked
I/J - Always have felt dirty before
K/L - Will tell the authorities about
M/N - Told in my confession today about
O/P - Was interviewed by the Times about
Q/R - Told my psychiatrist about
S/T - Get sick when I think of
U/V - Always will try to forget
W/X - Am better off without
Y/Z - Never liked

11. What do you prefer to drink?
Water- Our friendship
Beer - Senility
Soft drink - A new life as a clone
Soda - The incarnation as an eskimo
Milk - The apartment building
Wine - Cocaine abuse
Cider - A passionate interest for mice
Juice - Oprah Winfrey imitations
Mineral water - Embarrassing rash
Hot chocolate - Eggplant-fetishism
Whisky - To ruin the second world war
Other - To hate the Boston Celtics

12. To which country would you prefer to go on a vacation?
Thailand - Warm regards
USA - Best regards
England - Good luck on your short-term leave from jail
Spain - Go and drown yourself
China - Disgusting regards
Germany - With ease
Japan - Go burn
Greece - Your everlasting enemy
Australia - Greetings to your frog Leonard
Egypt - Fuck off now
France - In pain
Other - Greetings to your freaky family

13. What is your favorite activities when hanging out with mates?
Gathering for drinks - Ugly pig
Foosball - Silly duck
Shopping - French kisser
Dulging for food - Cranky banana
Movies - Smelly armpits
Snacks - Horny wolf
Snooker - Tiny nipples
Bowling - Sexy grandmother
Outdoor activities - Vain pot
Having a long talk - Nose plucker
Taking pictures - Dumb bitch
Other - Burn yourself
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After answering all the questions,...the letter would be...

Dear Carol.

I don’t really know how to tell you this, but your nostrils are insulting.I think I realized it when I tripped on sesame seeds in your camping car and I saw you carve your initials into my penpal in Ghana. I’m sure you’re ashamed enough to understand how boring you are. I’m returning your ring to you, but I’ll keep the results of your blood-sample as a memory. You should also know that I never openly mocked cocaine abuse.

In pain.
Iris Renee Cullen

P/S: You are so lifeless,Cranky banana,

.........................................................................

Once you’ve been tagged, you have to write a note with 16 random truths (shortcomings, facts, habits or goals about you) about you. At the end choose 10 people, and tag them. Try to include the person that tagged you so they can come back and see your answers!

My dream was to become a gynae
Now, I want to be in Cancer research.
I have a weak heart for hot guys..especially celebs
I hate flowers and plants
I love saying "darn"
I am a cry baby...
I love eating and eating and eating
I wish to be Edward's Bella
I admire a certain lecturer in IMU..*yea yea you guys are waiting for it*
I fail my Grade 1 piano practical examination
I was teacher's pet in high school. *When teacher see me roaming around school without Pass Keluar, They won't say anything.* When I want to skip class, I can always go to my Guru Penolong Kanan office and say "Any help" and I need not enter class already.
I cry at the same movie/book no matter how many times i rewatch/reread it.
I have constipation problem
I was in cheerleading?
I went through depression before
I had been in 2 relationship but have had only 1 boyfriend in my life. In other words, 2 relationships with the same guy. *I love you dear*

Nothing more nothing less..

And who I wana Tag?

Love <3
Danielle
Any other 8 people who happens to read this..

*Wipes away her sweat*

The neoplastic oncogene

Mochie mochie...and more bowling~haha

2008-12-02T10:11:00.000+08:00

Hey, I am back~

Not that I dissapear long enough to say that but..I am BACK..to my bloggy and it feels good!

If anyone was wondering about my "dissapearance" yesterday well....

I was captured my the handsomest vampire ever and he was trying to make me one....

Convinced???

I WISH! Hahaha

Well, I asked my boyfriend out for a bowling date. And so we went. At first we went makan at our favourite mee hun kueh hang out place and walk to Plaza Pelangi to try to find my new Twilight series book.................To no avail~ And so we proceeded to the purpose of our date...

Bowling!

We played three games back to back! And I was wanting for more! I was so darn happy. We walk around for a little while more and back to my house where my parents was waiting for us for dinner.

After dinner we went for chit chat drink.

It feels good to hang out with the two bunch of the most important personalities in life. Especially at once. We had good laughs and chat. That is all that really matters..

Back home, My little hamster Mochie was the star...

Wargh! Put me down!!! *squeek*

I say...PUT ME DOWN!!!...*Squeeeel*

Finally...down *Low pix quality*

That was practically my whole dat yesterday. I might not be something to you.. But IT IS SOMETHING TO ME...

The neoplastic oncogene n_n

Friends come..Friends go.....and X'mas is coming!

2008-11-30T09:25:00.000+08:00

Hey,

Blogging time...

Well, as you can see from the title. Yes, I am seemingly kinda frustrated with this thing called friendship.It's not that I don't like making friends or what. It's just kinda irritating when you found someone you are comfy with..and one minute..they are GONE.

Friends come when:-

You are popular

You are beautiful

You have money

You are smart

You are in need *In fact they want you see see him/her as an angel* P.S. not that i do not need it..I appreciate it when you help. But please don't make it sound like I should owe you for life or something. When I say thank you...I mean it.

You are weak. * Well, they want to make themselves feel good*

Friends go when:-

The opposite of the first 4 above.

You had found your significant other.

You are too busy and have plans, cannot get to attend a gathering for once or twice, they say you don't care about them anymore. *Now this is the most frustrating ones*

You see, the chances for you to lose a friend is higher than you gain a friend. Yes, I had been quite upset not THAT recent. I am ok now.

Being in IMU, everything is so different..So....fake... It is as if, it kills to be yourself. Everyone eyes for to be in the POPULAR list. It is not that I am a dork. I have feelings too. Sometimes my animal instincts take over. It IS quite a temptation to get everyone to know you. But yet again... ain't it fake? It is suffocating not to be yourself. It is like something inside of you wanting to come out but you don't want it to..It is like...
...

...
...CONSTIPATION!!!

Yes..yes... I bet many of you out that feels the way that I do.

And my secret of being happy now? I don't stuck within THAT bunch of people anymore. I move around. Eventhough I might still be more comfy with a certain kind of people *You know who you are*. I am happy that I get to meet more people and well, BE MYSELF. It is a rare chance for you to know a lot of friends and yet be yourself at the same time you know. It takes a hell lot of control and determination. That determination that I had thought I had given up years ago. I can feel it coming back little by little.. Although not 100% but at least I do not feel suffocated anymore.

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Christmas is coming!!! Chillax!! Whoopie! Just like every Christmas...It is a season to be JOLLY~ And in conjuction to get ready and be Jolly I need to do certain things!

Go Christmas shooping!
Write Christmas cards.
Estimate the number of present you might get this year
Set up a Christmas tree
Throw in the Christmas song CD.
Help out in Christmas play.
Plan Christmas outing.

And I am all set for CHRISTMAS!!

My Christmas wish list this year:-

Anything with the Cullen family crest on it.
The complete set of Twilight saga.
A 2 GB handphone memory card.
...Anything anyone can get for me...hahaha

Lol...Yes Yes... I am bored..

Bored to death...

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Bored...

2008-11-29T10:58:00.000+08:00

I am so so so so so so so so so so so bored that I do not know what I want anymore.. Actually, there are alot of things for me to do.. BUT WELL..These are the reasons..

Twilight: Finsh reading, waiting for my parents to bring me out so that I can get New Moon. I am sooo needing my doses of the Cullen clan right now. Don't know what the heck is Twilight? Read it in my previous post. And of course it is "searchable" on google. blah~

Internet: No friends online. And my dad being early at home and it is a saturday, It is just giving him extra chance to nag me around. I have had enough of his naggings and I couldn't stand it.

Going out: You see, I am suppose to go out to Singapore with my mum today, So I cancelled many of my stuff in order to visit my bro. My bro have something on.

Paktoh: Seems like someone's playing basketball with his friends..*sighs*

I tought coming back is a great idea to chillax *chill and relax*..My bad and greatest regret..! Well, now I am stuck at home. With nothing to do..no where to go..and with my dad throwing me around..And I HAVE TO REPEAT EVERYTHING I SAID FOR AT LEAST 4 TIMES! Not that I want to repeat. When I say something.. Dad will go "HAR??"...I answer again in the same tone..he will say.."Why? You don't want to answer me ah? You very big already lah? Very smart already lah"..When I answer again..LOUDER AND CLEARER..He goes.."I owe you is it? You very big is it"..There it goes, it just happened..trust me. So yea, I am more tense at home. In a way I preferred KL for I can do whatever I want. Maybe that's why I heard people saying home away from home is always better. Because I AM PISSED.

And he always stresses me to..YOU AND YOUR BROTHER MUST COMMUNICATE.. CONTACT EACH OTHER. You see, my bro is in Singapore now, under ASEAN scholarship. I love my brother, yes. But at his age now, we have nothing to talk about. And calling KIASULAND AIN'T CHEAP. Waiting for him online is hard. Can people just stop thinking that I AM THE BAD ONE? I am always the bad one what. I flunk my STPM. If not I will ALREADY GET SOME SCHOLARSHIP TO LESSEN HIS FREAKING BURDEN. You think I don't want meh? Huh??!! All these things make me hate Singapore more. ish~

Edward rescue me...Edward...

Maybe, I shouldn't come back so early to JB when I went back to KL to get my results. My mum will be going Hong Kong for quite some time and that leaves my dad and I at home. And that can be more stressfull! I am sorry I have to say this.

I AM NOT HAPPY TODAY.

Eventhough I dreamt of my favourite lecturer..hmmmzzz..

Dream? You want to know about my dream??

Since I am so darn freaking bored, I shall lose face abit lah..

Well, it was some module presentation and it was my groups turn. "He" was the lecturer in charge...

When all my friends had finished their presentation, it was my turn to stand 1 feet away from him and present my part. I was so darn nervous with him standing THERE and i messed it *presentation* up.

He came up to me and say .............................................*undisclosed*

I just gave him this answer " *gulp* I was nervous"..

He gave a brief nod...and and

and...

and....

My dad came home...........................................................................-_-lll

It was 10.30 in the morning. If I continue sleeping, nagging frenzy will start. So I might as well save my own skin...lol..

BTW, I am very very determined to get a Cullen Family crest accesory for christmas..*hint hint*

drooools

Till the nest time..

The neoplastic oncogene n_n

Twinkle Twinkle Twilight Day~

2008-11-28T06:44:00.000+08:00

I know it is early...Look at the time! I was awaken by the early morning procedures of my parents. And I am so not use to the darkness alone. * I wish Edward was with me...* Now who is Edward?

Great! I have to tell you all about my adventure.. My adventure with vampires and everything. My adventures with Twilight. Twilight is basically the first installment of the Twilight saga by Stephenie Meyer. Story of the love between Vampire *Edward* and Human *Bella*. I had only started book 1 and I was hooked onto this story like a magnet. Don't worry for those of my friends who wants to watch this movie..I won't give anything away in this blog. Like I say, it is merely on MY adventure to see the DANG hot Edward and Carlisle *Edward's foster dad*

It was 12 in the afternoon, and I was still taking my lunch. Hurrying through, we *my boyfriend and I* rush to the cinema *in another location* to grab our pre-booked tickets and have to wait for 45 minutes after that. It was a long and crucial wait *to me lah*...

AND FINALLY!!!!

I was reunited with my darling Edward!

The picture is not very the clear..However, EDWARD IS THERE..next to me you see..*lol*

Let me introduce some of my favoutrite cast to you guys~ * cheh wah, as if they are my friend!*

Edward and i..*hahaha* I wish.. Tha is Bella. Both the leads~ Great choice!

The Vampire *Cullen* clan. Yes! There are pretty vampires too!
From the left: Emmett, Rosalie, Esme *The mommy*, EDWARD, CARLISLE *the daaaddddyy*, Alice, Jasper.

Next stop...

Carlisle!! Played by Peter Facinelli~ Let me tell you! He is hawt! Hawter in the movie.. Make me want to cekik him and say YOU ARE HOT YOU KNOW!!?? *PS during the scene where he appears, every girl squeel..NO KIDDING!*

To my horror, almost 90% of the viewers were girls..! Even one wearing a T-shirt bearing..*I LOVE EDWARD CULLEN*..Darn, my darling got so many supporters... So sad lah!

Overall the movie was a great one! Got rooms for improvement lah! But I would still give it a 5 over 5 star! hehe.. You guys still sitting at home don't know what to do? I know you IMU students have NOTHING on.. Why not head down to the cinema near you and grab the ticket? C'mon..don't be shy!!! *They should pay me for publicity..lol*

I am soo waiting for New Moon..*The next installment*

Till then and till now..

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The Neoplastic 101

2008-11-26T10:56:00.000+08:00

Hey all,

After living in the blogging world for so long. I realise I haven't posted such post yet. A post for you guys to know more about me..my past..my all. I had always wanted to wrote similar posts, but due to lack of time and commitment, I had decided to postpone it... But why now? Haha..Just because I am bored out, has nothing to do and quite rotten up, I had decided to just get this over and done with. It is definitely going to be fun! So...here it goes.

Prologue

My name is Iris Goh Wen Li. I definitely don't want to highlight on how I was made pretty much how I was born. For those curiosity cat out there, 50% of the genes that make up me and the other 50% met on one particular day. After lots of mitosis going on...voila! A small alien swimming in my mum "bag of water" was made. After 9 months *I do not know how long I had stayed in that "bag of water"* I had decided to make myself known on the 13th April 1988, one day before my mum's birthday.

Yeap that is me..A few weeks old i think... bear with the low quality picture, because my handphone aint that high tech!

Little Brat

Yes, I was a happy kid. But no doubt my parents were a strict bunch *Why did i use the word were? You guys will see why later* I spend most of my life at this stage in my grandma's house in Taman Sri Tebrau. I was loved by everyone, my aunts, my uncles...I was brought to everywhere they went. Like every small kids, I happen to be a brat. Spoilt and naughty. I was taught good by my dad whom I was terrified of. On the age of 2 or 3, I was sent to the nursery, then kindergarten. Funny incidents happen...*lol*. And stage was my best friend. Performances during concerts were my favourites....After four years in Kindergarten, I am finally a school kid...

I know I was an angry kid~lol

Fido Dido was my fave~haha

Karaoke...need not say more..

Little flower girl me...CUTE!

Gong xi fa cai!! Chinese New Year

Cousin and I...

My best friend~ lol

I seriously don't know who is that guy.. but well, hehe

Primary school days

The typical dark blue "apron" haha...I can still remember. I had already move into my recent house. I am still afraid of my dad. Kind of think of it, there is no one time which I was not afraid of him. Studies in convent. Being that "jakun" kid who don't know everything and who wants everything. I can still remember those days when I was not selected to be a class monitor, I cried. Lol...That WAS me lah.. Got active in church. Found a few friends who loves to bully me.. But some of the genuine friend stays till now. Friends like Li Peng, Stephanie Kim and some of my church buddies. During Std 6 I had my first crush on some guy in church. Naive me. Lol...It lasted for a long 4 years i think...*which drags through the next era* Did I mention I look nerdy? Haha....Let the pictures do the talking.

WARNING: Hold your breath for sudden surge of shock and laughter.

Yea, yea..The typical Power Rangers days.. Here with me is my bro~

I was in LOVE with the peace sogn at that time.

The funny bit. Just look at me would u! hahaha... Family photo~

Me and my bro~ Go on laugh!

Secondary dilemma

Light blue "apron" years~ haha.. And yes I was still going crazy over this particular guy *refused to be named*. At this era too, I decided to change. New friends and new attitude. Was more and more active in church BUT I can't help but to hide in my own little shell of comfort, refust to come out. I tag around my friends and agree to whatever they say.Here, I met my fellow Mosquitoes... Comprises of three of us in church, Kim Stef and i. We were the crazy bunch. We hang out together most of our time. Crap about almost everything. Guys...School..Teachers...Parents...Everything! This was the time I met Desmond too..who in turn become someone very important to me in my life during form 5. To talk about the both of us, I need another long post~ lol..
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These are the three mozzies! Kim me and Stef

The TOMBOY me...lol~

Kiki, my first dog..and me

Des and I, not yet together. *SERIOUS*

My prime years..

Yes I had decided to take form 6. * which I had not regret*. Form 6 was my prime years in school. Seriously, This was when i step out and who I want to be. This is also the busiest year in all my schooling days. Being the secretary for Basketball Club and Trusein *Red House* and the Head of Planning Unit of my Prefectorial Board and Contact Club *A society where we help the blind students in school*. My life revolves around study and paperwork. And found another group of friends which we called ourselves The Asymptotes. We were the team who went for the National Bridge Model Competition. Together, we went through thick and thin... I miss them.. STPM was also the one major exam which took away all my self confidence in study... Oh and this was when I grew more and more close with my parents. =D

First stop, introducing my dog, Sparky~

Basketball club, I was the secretary and my boyfriend was the president,haha

The Asymptotes...=D

Crazy school days.

Day of the Bridge competition

Prefectorial Board, My life and sweat of Form 6

University

After my STPM, I had a hard time deciding what to do.. As much as I want to be a doctor, I also want to be a cancer researcher. After much brooding over, I decided to take BioMed in IMU, which is what I am doing now. Over here, another part of my life had started. Life without my family, less time with my boyfriend. I am pretty much alone in this. But I had survived Sem 1. Which I am happy about.. Here too I met people like Chia Wen, Timothy, Irene, Yee Leong and gang...Yes, life still moves on... Thanks guys!

My fellow partner in crime, Chia Wen!

The lepak people...lol

My chemistry poster team

My moral studies presentation team

The girls...

BM108!

Epilogue

I do not know where this path will take me too. However, I am very happy now, and I want to thank my parents for bringing me up, my dear to be there for me all the time, my family and friends to give me such warmth and comfort. Thanks you guys!!! Appreciate it!

That's all from me today. I need to rest my hand, lol!

The neoplastic oncogene n_n

My new blog..

2008-11-25T14:29:00.001+08:00

Yes,

It is me again.

With my new blog again~

Lol~ Why am i creating new blogs? You must be wondering..

First of all.. my first blog:-

http://www.irisrenee.blogspot.com
is nothing but my past.. All the things I had want to leave behind and never turn back..

Secondly:-

Myspace:-

No1 wants to go there and have a peek..even so...they dont have the freedom to post their own opinions and share opinions on stuff..

Hence, this blog is set up. =D

First of all I am back in JB. Will be back until 4th of Dec then I will go back to KL to grab my results.. Then back again for Christmas. Busy holidays i should say, but a part of me doesnt kow how to spend it..*sighs*

Finally, introducing my new pal.. Mochie the Hamster! Brought it in Midvalley on the 23rd of November 2008. She will be my only company in my KL home...I shall post her pix here..

Sleepy...on her way to her new home in Bukit Jalil.

She is such an explorer.. Ain't she cute?

*sniff sniff*

Lol, that's all from me today..

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